Day 46 - Trying to Stay Level-Headed Unbalances your Head

Trying to stay level headed unbalances your head. I try to not get involved with polarising discourse and a primary tactic is to avoid use of inflammatory words such as "woke", "triggered", "gammon", "snowflake" etc (for more examples see Day 6).

It can be particularly frustrating making conscious efforts to abstain from lazy divisiveness when almost everybody else doesn't make this effort back. This is of course is an unfair expectation, as other people are unaware of my personally enforced set of rules and even if they were aware they still aren't their rules to follow. But there's only so much pressure my withholding of a cascade of predisposed bias I can take.

Stay calm. Stay level headed. Remain cool. It's all good just stay calm. It's easy just be composed. Stay level headed. God they're just not noticing how calm I'm trying to stay. Why aren't they noticing the obvious effort I'm putting in here? It's okay just stay calm. If you can stay level headed it'll all turn out fine and you won't regret anything. Why aren't they doing the same I am?! Inconsiderate! No, they are just saying their opinion, its okay. Fuck it's winding me up now! Stay level headed. Level headed. God they're just saying all these cliche divisive buzzwords. Just stay collected. You can do this! NO! FUCK! Level headed!!! But.... ajduwjasgsnqgjajhlk. Auughhhhh!! Ausuauuaugsjanahsubdnsjauabanyahhhhhhhhh!!!!

And this is how trying to be level headed is psychologically destructive.

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