Day 51 - Finding Precise Equilibrium between Vacuous Passiveness and Cilla Black's Solipsistic Arrogance

The main problem with people, myself included, is they think they are right. Every conversation 99% predetermined with hardwires opinions locked and loaded. The plan - look like you're listening and wait for a semi-relevant moment to say the thing you've been waiting to say regardless of how the conversation goes, then return home to continue to think what you already thought.

This isn't a scathing judgement of others, I am guilty of it myself. I try not to act this way, but it's difficult. Plus you do need to tread the line carefully, as it is also ill-advised to go too far the other way and become a vapid and docile empty vessel, forever flip-flopping opinions based on the last thing you heard. Some level of barriers of resistance and self-assuredness are necessary, meaning that finding the happy medium is a punishing toil (assuming you're in a comfortable first world middle-class environment and don't have to deal with any actual punishing toils).

"I met Cilla Black once - she sat at a table I'd reserved and refused to move. Her spiteful arrogance was astounding." - Tweeted prior to her death, but did the rounds following it and remains prevalent to this day. This is no way to be remembered. Heed this warning. Remain open-minded or face humanity's eternal scorn. 

It could serve as a possible New Years resolution. Tell people that "my resolution is to be more open minded but not much more. To achieve perfect equilibrium between vacuous passiveness and solipsistic arrogance in order to not be Cilla Black." That would get an interesting response in the office.