Day 72 - It's a Funny Old Life

Motivation is difficult in the long dark winter days, but staying inside typing is difficult on long sunny summer days. Motivation is difficult when you're drunk or hungover. Winter days are difficult to get through so beer is a well-earned comforting treat. In summer it's nice out so everybody wants a drink in the sun. It's a funny old life. Whatever the circumstance, most aren't concerned with when they will have the time to cram in some writing.

I'm obsessed with motivation to such a degree that my motivation is predominantly motivation themed. It would be easier to be motivated by motivation if the motivation which motivated me was in fact motivation rather than a lack of it. With motivation derived from a lack of motivation it is more likely that frustration is the true motivating factor, which wouldn't be out of character given that moments of annoyance are one of the few times my brain actually sparks into life, before I realise I need to calm down. Unfortunately my predominant state of alertness is accompanying by the risk of losing my shit and embarrassing myself so to avoid humiliation it is better to permanently shut down my brain. It's a funny old life.

On the note of shutting down my brain, I've managed to squrdge this one out in a pre-caffeine state of semi-consciousness, hence why I've said the word "Motivation" 11 times and "Motivated" 3 times, in only three paragraphs. I doubt anybody else has surpassed that achievement this morning.